Pages From Cold Point

Pages From Cold Point
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“For a boy of sixteen
Racky has an extraordinary
innocence of vision.”
—Paul Bowles,
“Pages From Cold Point,”
The Delicate Prey
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Not so innocent—
not so innocent at all
actually, my dear

My exile to Cuba—
had got my father off
the hook at Cold Point

But dearest daddy was—
actually the innocent one
and certainly not me
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Thanks to my gay—
Uncle Charlie who got
me off fairly early

I was no longer—
the dumb innocent type
that’s for sure, honey

My poor naïve father—
thought everybody knew
that I was the fag
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And certainly not him—
a retired queen bee there
at lovely Cold Point

Au contraire, my dear—
everybody read his beads
a longtime ago

I got to know—
all the cute island boys
much too much
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Both my father—
and Uncle Charlie were
queer as 3-dollar bills

But I was much too—
out of the closet and
exposed both of us

The Island just—
wasn’t ready for both
of us raving faggots!
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How embarrassing—
both gay father and son
pillaging all the youth!

It was bad enough—
Me sucking off Peter
The young cute houseboy

Swimming in the nude—
down there on the beach
at Saint Ives Cove
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But I’d been cruising—
all the young men over
there in Orange Walk too

I had this thing for—
young handsome Carib cock
nice big dark meat!

An unforgivable sin—
and yet I knew early on
I was a Dinge Queen!
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Cold Point was like—
a powerful drug like some
sullen Afro-Aphrodisiac!

I was addicted to it—
just goofing around the island
no school just sucking dick

The only solution was—
to ship me off to Havana
and get me off the island
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My mother’s estate—
was put into a trust and
I ended up there in Cuba

My father got me—
an apartment and bought me
a nice new convertible

I had plenty of dough—
and lots of new boyfriends
Havana back then was hot!
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I fell for handsome Claudio—
with all his nice white teeth
and his Vendado cute smile

And so we ended up—
me doing Havana while my
dearest daddy did Cold Point